Lack of will to fight.....

[SuperBazor]

I am just curious how does other people kept on fighting kahit lugmok na sila. In my special case.... Wala akong masandalan dahil di ako nagtitiwala sa mga friends ko or I have no friends at all. Second is ayoko naman sa parents ko dahil medyo busy sila kaya kahit obligasyon nilang tulyngan ako sa emotional problem ko ay di ko sinasabi. Pangatlo ay sinubukan kong mag research and apply pero mukhang di na tatagal yung panandaliang solusyon. What should I do? Also, wala rin ata akong FILIPINO WILL. Hehehe.

[superosmdummi]

Una, ano ba problem mo? Do you really know what it is? Or is it something na di pangangyayari.. whatever. Second, ano ba causes ng problem mo? Something you did? Something someone else's did? Etc. Third, Isipin mo yung great things in life na meron ka. It maybe as simple as a milk carton inside you fridge. Fourth, sabi sa akin ng friend ko dito sa PGG think of what makes you happy. Siguro kung nawala man yung will/drive mo for living babalik din ito. I do not know what exactly your problem(s) is/are so ito lang ma- a - advice ko. I've been through a lot this year... to the point na I just wanna stop breathing and die. Pero the people around me helped me, and even strangers helped me. Ayun bumalik ang will ko to live. (I wish that what you're experiencing right now isn't as heavy as was once mine)

PS. If you wanna talk about it I could lend my listening ear... or should I say my virtual listening ear...(just PM me:) ) And everything's going to be alright *giving you virtual pats in the back*

[marvinofthefaintsmile]

ive been tru hell and back.. and I became successful on my own. Just to the best you can.. gambate!!!

[SuperBazor]

Maraming salamat sa mga advices.... ako ay naghahanap lang ng mga unbiased advice dahil I currently have groups of friends na I am unsure kung masaya ako sa kanila lalo na nung binigyan nila ako ng condom kasama nung gift njila sa akin this Christmas Party. Take note, babae sila at I am just 16 years old. Since sinabi niyo naman po na kung ano problema ko then here it is.

Medyo nalulungkot ako minsan at nawawalan ng will dahil ay wala namang moral support sila pero I try my best to think positive. My parents are negative most of the time. Pangalawa ay I barely have enough friends. Yung tipo na intinding intindi ka nila ng hindi nila pinipilit ang sarili nila na intindihan nila. Lastly I medyo di ako mapagtiwala sa tao dahil sa mga nakaraang insidente. Sinubukan kong buksan ang pintuan pero pakiramdam ko ay medyo mapapasama ako pag kasama nila. BTW.... When I am with them I only feel na pampalipas oras ko lang sila at ganun din sila.

PS: Nagtataka man kayo kung bakit sa edad kong ito ay nandito ako sa ganitong klaseng forum ay iyon dahil sa para maibsan ang pakiramdam na nag iisa at the same time ay may natutunan ako. I think of it as MY SOCIAL WINDOW para mas maintindihan ang mga tao sa paligid ko dahil bihira lang ako makipag socialized. This last Christmas party nga lang namin ay parang gusto kong gumapang palabas ng venue at umuwi dahil naiintimidate ako at out of place.

[SuperBazor]

O nga pala. Kuya Marvs. Halata naman po na successful ka on your own kasi po tuwing nababasa ko yung mga reply mo po sa iba't ibang thread ay nangingibaw yung positive energy po ninyo at nakikiata rin mo sa reply niyo yung intensity ng experience niyo po. hehehe. Observant po kasi ako eh. hehehe.

[SuperBazor]

And I idolized people na kayang maging successful mag-isa lalo na sa ating magulong mundo.

[superosmdummi]

Well, first of all, my parents the the most negative people I know... Yung tipong super walang tiwala sa'yo yung parents ko sa akin. And sa dinami dami ng contests/activities/achievements na napalanunan/nasalihan/nakamit ko eh they did not support me ni walang "I'm so proud of you son" as in wala kapag sumasali nga ako eh super nega nila... reasons nila is "gastos lang yan, matatalo ka naman" so what I did/ still doing is that I am pushing myself to be someone na masasabi nilang proud sila, yes maybe pushing myself too hard hurts me, yung tipong I will never settle for good, I always want to be the best at everything, nakakadepress yung ganong feeling pero I'm coping with it. And when it come to friends dapat sila yung taong true sa'yo, kung may mali kang ginawa they shouldn't say na okay lang yan pero dapat pangaralan ka nila but still they're with you all the way through. They should also be the one to understand you lalo na kung me-against-the-world ang buhay mo, sila yung mga sandalan/tungkod mo na tutulong sa'yo in your life, pero still ikaw pa rin ang dapat na numero uno na tutulong sa buhay mo.

let me share something sa iyo. I am that kind of person na is very ambitious na ung tipong out of this world / perfect world and laging nasa isip. I never saw the reality of life, that it isn't controlled, that it isn't as perfect as what I dreamed it would be. Plus super dami pang personal/emotional problems sa bahay/school. Yun yung breaking point ko. It resulted to an attempted suicide (but malamang di natuloy kasi I'm still talking to you diba). But that will do nothing. Anong mapapatunayan nun? That I am a coward to face my fears/problems, that I cannot think rationally.

Think of what your dealing right know is just a small spec para sa ibang tao. And think of something na will make / makes you happy. These little things will be enough for you to fight the endless battle of life.

(sorry if medj magulo yung explanation ko.)

[SuperBazor]

Maraming salamat po Kuya. Kasi ngayon, alam ko kung saan muna ako magsisimula. At iyon ay hanapin kung ano ang nakakapagpasaya sa akin. Sa mundo ko na maraming negatibo, mahirap hanapin at alamin. Pero it is worth doing. Merry Christmas

[Derric]

Despite of everything you just shared superosmdummi, mas marami pang ibang tao na mas malungkot ang buhay - mga walang trabaho, breadwinner, nag-oofw,  at kung anu-ano pa. Ako din naman malungkot sa buhay, but I am still living my life. Kung may chance or opportunities, grab it. Do what will make you happy.

[superosmdummi]

So far that's what I am doing right now. Sana nga ngayong 2013 never ko nang ma feel yung naramdaman ko nung 2012 yung feeling na you've hit rock bottom and super desperate kang tumaas kaso di kaya, so gusto mo nalang is mag end ang feeling na yun. Positive and happy thoughts... yun lang ang lagi kong iniisip when it comes to encountering such problems.

[joshgroban]

hope is always available kasi kaya theres no such thing as lack of will to fight...it is tantamount to fear

[marvinofthefaintsmile]

i-borbard na yan!

[Lanchie]

I became dismissive and self-absorbed. There.

[Lanchie]

If you don't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?"